I just finished watching A Bigger Splash because I, like every good artsy fartsy gay, am currently obsessed with Luca Guadagnino and it was amazing but it mainly made me upset that I will never live up to an aesthetic as much as Tilda Swinton does.
The innuendo is thick. When a yearbook editor juxtaposes photos like this, we do have to wonder whether it’s as deliberate as it looks. By the way, the Christian yearbooks invariably have the best innuendo. In general, the more private the college, the more homoerotic the photos. Military colleges also ooze with homoeroticism, obviously.
Also, my grades for my first semester come out this weekend and I’m so excited because I know I killed four out of my five classes but I’m also so anxious because one of the classes had an entire half of the exam based on a book that was on the syllabus but we never spoke about and it felt like taking an exam on a class I never took. Law school grades are curved though and everyone seemed to feel the same way so I guess just fingers crossed. But I’m gonna be a ball of nerves till then.
I’m like “dating” a boy and he is really sexy and sooooo nice but we send each other a couple of texts a day and don’t really schedule dates it’s more of a “hey I’m not doing anything wanna hang out and go to a movie or something” and tbh with the title of him being my boyfriend that would be like ideal because I fucking hate having to be in constant communication with someone and everything is so low pressure that he never makes me nervous… but the way it is now is definitely not ideal because I constantly feel like I’m making the relationship more than it is and I feel crazy and like I constantly feel the need to prove to my friends that he is like real and not just like a casual hook-up? And I obviously know that the right answer is to be open and communicate how I feel with him but I feel like it is too soon for me to be demanding of a more substantial relationship. I also wouldn’t be so overly concerned if it wasn’t for the fact that the last boy I dated gave me the same exact treatment and we kept it up for about two or three months and then he just stopped texting me completely and we never spoke again so that definitely has me anxious.
